Can’t be bothered

Am I falling out of love with running? Actually, if I’m honest I was never really in love with running. I am struggling to find the motivation. I have only been out once this week and actually that was a great run – we went uphill and it was hard, proper hard, but I got further up the hill before stopping than I ever have before and I ran back down faster than I ever have before. I had that slightly smug achey feeling for a couple of days after and the run completely cleared my head.

But yesterday I couldn’t be bothered and today I can’t be bothered. It’s all odd because I am looking forward to the long run at the weekend. It’s the runs during the week that I just can’t motivate myself to do. It’s the routine ones I am struggling with.

I just read my first post on this blog – it talked about honesty and telling it like it is. So here it is: I can’t be bothered. Today I am not excited about running the London Marathon. Not because I don’t think I can do it or whatever, just because I can’t be bothered. I know that if I went out and ran I’d feel better, but I can’t be bothered. Today, right now, I couldn’t care less about running or about how it makes me feel better or what an achievement it is, how far I’ve come or any of that. I just can’t be bothered, with any of it.

Sorry.

6 thoughts on “Can’t be bothered

  1. Yep. I feel like that sometimes. Often, in fact. I enjoy it once I’m out…usually… but not always! I had a rubbish run today. Came home after 10 minutes or so. And every week, I turn up at swimming, and people stand around in the changing room saying “Do I have to get in??” 😉 I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: blog is raw sometimes, but it is honest. And it’s refreshing. The rainbows and unicorns will return for some future run. Until then, it’ll just be a slog at times. Hang in there. It WILL be worth it, but it won’t always feel like that….

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  2. I completely get the fatigue with the routine runs- I can’t be bothered either! Ive had a shitty cold this week so I haven’t been out, but tbh i’m not sure I would have been bothered too anyway even if id been well. It is hard to keep at it, but take comfort in the fact that we all struggle sometimes.

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