Not a Good Day

Just a quick update. Today has not been a good day. I barely made it off the sofa. I went to do the food shop with Kath this morning and that about finished me off. I have also really been struggling with the concept of not being at work – I’ve just been worrying about all the things I am not doing and someone else now has to do… I wasn’t really for leaving my safe space sofa at all. I tried to sleep a bit but whenever I try my brain kicks in and I worry…

So running – we were going to do another 45 minutes today, we didn’t. Instead we ran non-stop to our sheep, fed them and then ran non-stop back. That’s less than two miles in total. Oh well. There was a small win though, we managed to run up the road leading to our road – it’s a steady slope which doesn’t look like much but I’ve never made it without walking before – must have been the call of the sofa! The clarity that came with running yesterday didn’t come but the doubts did – on the way there more so than on the way back. If I am struggling this much on a 10 minute stretch it is idiotic to think I can make it through 26.2 miles… Urgh

3 thoughts on “Not a Good Day

  1. You’re an absolute warrior for battling through this, take it from someone who’s been there. I really hope you’re okay. I know how it feels to be off work and have too much time on your hands, but it’ll end eventually. Sounds like you’re doing a good job of breaking the day up with tasks and exercise. Really hope you feel better soon.

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  2. It’s not idiotic to think you can do 26.2 miles- You CAN do 26.2 miles, but we all have days when the doubts creep in. You did get off the sofa and you did run, thats a win, no matter the distance! Make sure you remind yourself of that xx

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